Self, and Challenges

I consider myself a stubborn individual, unwilling to except most changes; but I also consider myself someone who goes along with life. Of course these two ideas seem far too different to be put together, but for me it is true. Yes, I do have problems with things that change my environment; I am a traditional person and am happy with what I surround myself with. Changing my happy environment, well, doesn’t make me happy. However, if change does occur in my life, I accept it. I do tend to think back to past situations numerous times a day, but I know that nothing can change those events. I know that once something has happened, there is no going back. Continuously everyday we are brought to brief moments that evolve our lives, and we can not go back in time. We have to learn to accept these moments, whether they be positive or negative. We can dwell on the past, or embrace it, depending on the events that occurred, but you also have to let them go. I live by the mantra, “you live, and you learn,” and I am a strong believer in it. Things happen, and there is no going back. If something negative occurs, all you can do is learn from it, and better your life in the future from those lessons. On positive experiences, well I consider them memories. They are something that you want to cherish forever. I am lucky in the sense that I have this view on positive and negative experiences. Through my life, I know that I have experienced many things: bullying, heartache, rejection, failure, and other such negative things. However, as time grew on, I forgot. I don’t remember coming home every night from school crying. I don’t remember in even moderate detail my emotional perceptions in the beginning of high school. I still remember the failure I felt later in high school, the beginning of university, and now. It’s a slow process. But do remember in great detail some of the best moments of my life-my childhood being the greatest of those moments. I don’t thing people had seen such a smiling child as I, and this was due to the fact that my childhood, to me, was flawless.
I have grown up as a “sheltered child” as many would say. I did not endure immense pain from mistakes, or injury, lack of love, or anything else. I was sheltered from all that. However, I shed light to others on these matters because although I have not experienced them, everyone around me has. My family and friends, and those who have influenced my life in any way have caused me to have such a vast view of the world. I have taken the time in my life to listen to others, the embrace their challenges, and to face them as if they would by embodying the emotion in my mind. Perhaps that is why I am such an emotional being. But it thankfully has given me the understanding of others. Some of the people closest to me have been faced with intense injuries, life altering disease or health changes, different life settings, and way of dealing with the situations they are faced. I have seen some of the worst of the situations. When others hear stories of my family, in all its different relations, they see a multitude of problems. But in fact, I have never seen my family as problematic or dramatic. They have all faced their challenges with different degrees, and it has caused me to see them as a raw being. Some may appear stronger than others, but they all handle their situations differently. They embraced these challenges in their own way so that they can cope with it all…I am merely a fly on the wall.
It is through the power through the struggle of so many individuals that I find a way to understand almost all perspectives on life. Some may say that I have always been wise above my years; I say that I have had the fortune to learn from everyone in my life. I have also learned that people are given only the challenges that they can learn to face…for me, I feel as if my challenges are the most minor that can be faced. Perhaps I underestimate my difficulties, but sometimes it scares me that if I feel I haven’t had a true life altering experience that I have to face, then when, and what kind of challenge will occur to me? I may not be the strongest individual, and I do not see myself as invincible; however, I do feel that with the experiences of others I have learned so much. I know that there is always something you can learn, and I feel so blessed to have people who can share their experiences with me.